First things first – accountability – I bought scratchcards. I did win a fiver, but entirely not the point.
Good now that’s outta the way.
I’ve had what feels like about 7 minutes of sleep. Horrible, harrowing nightmares are back, so it looks like I’m in for a long ride with this lack of sleep. I usually get a fairly long bout of the nightmares, always hopeful it will be a one off though.
Another thing people don’t really understand about the mind, is that it is a fantastic thing. It has the power to make you feel every emotion and cripple you even in your sleep. My depression brings exhaustion, which messes with my sleep and my tired brain likes to scare me, and make me anxious. It’s a vicious cycle. Another horrible aspect of having mental health problems
I would go back to bed but actually I feel slightly scared about what my brain will bring me in that moment. So I’m going to try and busy myself with a puzzle or some thing.