Would it still be ‘not that bad’ if I kill myself?
Would people still try and make comments about ‘blowing things out of proportion’ if I just disappeared?
Would my depression be valid if I killed myself?
Would you even notice if I just wasn’t around anymore?
Even when I point blank, matter of factly talk about my feelings of hopelessness, grief, sorrow, emptiness and sucidal thoughts, my “depression” isn’t depression depression and I can handle it…
I can’t. I don’t want to. Why am I not good enough, why are my feelings not validated. Why do I even bother….